As if her leaving wasn't enough to shatter me, just today, she cut my phone off and is threatening to not help me pay for the mortgages that are in both our names. She knows the two fears that terrify me the most are (1) her leaving and(2) withdrawing monetary support. And she does it to be vicious and mean.
Why when one says they "love and adore" you, do they turn around and act so vicious, cruel and mean? I don't get it! I tried, I really tried begging, pleading, anything and everything to get her to change her mind.
We have known each other for 22 years and spent the last 12 together. How can she do this to me? She can be a hardass, pushing those two buttons on me cause she knows it hurts me like hell. What did I ever do to deserve this? I know I am not innocent in this and I have my shortcomings and faults, but at least I want to work this out and I don't run away. What makes a person do this? I slept with this woman, loved this woman, sacrificed my family's approval for her, bailed her out of one situation after another. Was I not enough of a hardass? Was I too easy? Does she have me over a barrel?
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If everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, we'd see the day when nobody died. IF EVERYONE CARED/Nickelback
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