Originally Posted by pnggrad79
I don't ever want to see her face again. She has hurt me beyond measure. I need some lesbian love. It will never happen to me again. I love/d her but she is intent on destroying me.
In one way she made it possible for you to make a clean break by demonizing herself.
Simplify your life. get rid of "stuff" material and otherwise. Let go of the home you had. Rent out your house, or sell it.... or if the mortgage is too big, let go of it after yoou have made other plans. Everyone's credit sucks today.
I used to have pictures over 12 years of my ex and me. I burned them and cried. now I live in the moment and can let in joy. I'm 46 and have about 10 years left that I desire to experience. I can waste no time with the past. After the next decade, I could give a damn whether I continue living.
This is the finale, dear. This is the last ride. spend it up and seize the hell out of the day