[chadp81]

"Sounds like your friend has an inkling that you are gay. Now. Wouldn't it be a trip if your buddy was also gay and was feeling you out for how you might respond if he told you? Stranger things have happened!"
Wow, that would be a trip! it would actually be very comforting to me. My Best and I could pass for brothers, we were born close together, him 11/16/81 me 11/19/81, we like the same foods, music, t.v. shows, most of the same movies, we do have some stuff that's different, I'm way more hard headed, he hunts and fishes (that's not me at all!), hes musically talented (he can play like 5 different instruments)... we get along great and we even look similar, same height, he's a bit heavier than me, anyway, what am I doing rambling on about my Best!...

"Of course, there are gay bars..... The thing is this, after you've come out awhile, you will find yourself getting to know other gay people as a matter of course. And then, there is simply the matter of keeping one's eyes open. You can meet a great guy in the checkout line of the supermarket! Heck, I met my guy at the gym. You just never know."
I still wonder if I should move to a bigger city or not, you don't really hear about many gay people coming out in my area, and we don't even have straight bars here, its a Dry county, no clubs either... we have Bingo.. lol Ive thought about the online stuff but like I said, I want a relationship not meaningless sex. I want my first time to be special... Lame, I know...

Wow, meeting "Mr.Right" in the grocery line is kinda cool to think about! I mean, that would be awesome, be struck stupid by love while paying for groceries... I feel stupid.. lol, I keep smiling while I think about that. This gives me some hope!

"If you haven't had any sexual experience, I suggest you look into getting your 'shots'. That is, the vaccines for hepatitis, HPV (the vaccine is called Gardisil) etc. You can go to a clinic to get this done. Straight or gay, this what young people should be doing to protect themselves and their partners. It's always better to play it safe! Of course, you will want to learn how to use a condom. It's not rocket science."
Thanks for telling me that, I'll look into it, but I don't plan on doing anything unless I can play it safe, I don't wanna take any risks. I do know how to use a condom, Ive worn one before, just never used it for intercourse.

I do wanna come out FOR ME, but is it wrong for me to do it if it hurts those closest to me, does that make me selfish? I really like the letter idea, I'll give that some thought...