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I just can't figure her out anymore and I am not with her to understand these little nuances. One minute she is mean and hateful and the next she is friendly and rather funny and bright. I understand the ups and downs of heartbreak, but I rather find it odd that she is one who left and still feels heartbroken. Maybe so, but I have only twice been in that position. Once with her and then again with my ex husband. With her, I had justified my leaving on the grounds that it was good for her to be out on her own. Much like she is doing to me now...Odd. The next time was with my ex husband and I had emotionally divorced him years before, so leaving wasn't that traumatic in the sense that I missed him and wanted to get back together. What upset me the most about him was how he treated my girls.

The thing that stumps me about this is we have had two really good conversations online over yahoo chat, and I don't know what all that means, or what is going thru her head at this point. Maybe we are on the way up and wherever that takes us, will involve a lot of counseling, healing and trust rebuilding. I am just looking for damage control here.