Thanks so much. I know that God has blessed my life with many good people, most of whom have been very supportive.
There are things that interest me, and others that don't. I just know that I've known that I've had attractions to guys since a young age--- I seem to remember a lot of the old shows like Hercules where some male characters, human or centaur, would catch my eye. The denying and suppressing contributed to my emotional distress. My fears, some of which include what you describe above, also included loss of friends, loss of my future, loss of faith (but turning away from the denial brought me back closer to Christ) etc. My biggest was rejection because of my faith and politics. But, as you said, it's not a "lifestyle", it's part of who God made you to be.
Anyhoo, I'm obsessing a little here. Thanks again!