I've been feeling a bit down this year.
In August, my first cat Chessie passed away from a heart issue he had, and I've been missing him so much since. There are times I think he knew me better than I knew myself.
Also, this year, I'm staying home for Christmas. Originally, I was planning on driving the hour up to my parents' house for the day. However, my brother (a sheriff deputy back home) is on duty this afternoon and evening. So, we're putting off dinner and presents at our parents' house until sometime in January.
Plus, my being single has gotten me down a bit, especially when I get to thinking about the guy I proposed to almost three years ago who turned out to be lying to me about being single. He'd already moved his ex-boyfriend back in with him.
Even though I'd mentioned to several friends that I was staying home for Christmas, nobody even asked if I wanted to come over for the day or anything, leaving me feeling like I'm not wanted or something.
But, at least I'm not really alone as I still have Casey Jones (my second cat) and Smokey (my third cat who I adopted in September). We'll spend the day watching Christmas movies and TV specials and listening to Christmas music. For dinner, I'll be carving the Christmas pizza.