Genee, The spirit of the forest was my first perception of the awareness of life energy. I can never characterize it but I sense, as you did, that it indeed is there.
Victoria, By "Killing" The Sneaker and Dr Snedeker personas using spiritual immolation I was not employing violence but a compassionate euthanasia.
These personas were not fearful of dying, in fact each had a very strong death wish. Their fear was also ameliorated by the Knowledge that some part of their awareness that survived the first series of immolations would be put to rest by subsequent exercises and overwritten with new experiences.
This "emptying" and "No-self" frees the awareness to experience fresh new moments without the attachment to lingering mortal psychological wounds.
Victoria, Your question is too valuable IMO to keep in my private message, so I am posting it to the thread from which it was provoked.
Originally Posted by Victoria
Have you ever been diagnosed with DID/MPD? Or did you come to your understanding of selves apart from Psychology?
Because it could be really awe inspiring for people ~with~ DID, who are trapped in a system of psychiatry and drugs that suppresses wounded selves, rather than assist them towards healing transformations, to see how a ~healthy~ system functions...
It just goes with an idea I've been working on...
I have never been diagnosed with DID or MPD.
Contemporary psychology is helpful in establishing self identity perhaps but it lacks any method of mental exercise through daily practice, guide, or training of the conscious mind.
The conscious mind is an astonishingly potent resource for freeing other levels of awareness from the suffering that resulted from past abusive operant conditioning. IMO.
DID and MPD are labels. Labels can be used constructively or they can indulge self-injury.
My best use of contemporary psychology is to connect my western manner of thinking to the vastly advaned, thoroughly developed science of the mind that is Buddhism.
Practicing Buddhism is like Picking up Piano. You must have a strong pursuing tenacious desire in order for the discipline to cultivate your conscious mind effectively.
But like an talented pianist can move crowds with his/her muse, A person pracicing Buddhism can potently evolve his/her conscious mnd out of suffering.
The only belief required is that:
1) your mind exists as an awareness.
2) that this awareness can be developed to evolve by following study of
the Eight-fold path, with meditation and action.
The rest is learning by doing