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Oh don't worry all, I am done! I was over at a mutual friend's house tonight and she called this friend and basically told her that the only reason she invited me to come back was that she didn't want to be by herself having and raising a baby. I don't know when she planned on dumping me, if it was after the baby was born and she was used to it or what, but that absolutely startled me! She only wanted me back to USE me. Then she said she was lying to me and to herself when she said she was in love with me. Trying to make herself believe it was true. The colossal gall of this woman is unbelievable.

So you know what I did? I went home and took out our wedding photos and tore them up into little pieces and went to the dumpster outside and pitched it all in there, album and all. I am so done with the lying bitch, it isn't funny. Never want to see her or hear from her ever again. It won't be too soon if she falls off the planet. I would be none too happy.

23 years of turmoil, lies, manipulations, guilt, fear, shame, and I wasted those years on loving someone who is beyond love. She only knows how to control and manipulate to get what she wants.

She lied to me and I stupidly believed her. In my defense, at least I was honest and I loved her and tried to show her the best way I knew how. It wasn't good enough because she didn't love in return.

I am finished. I hope somewhere down the road I get the trust back that I need to start over with someone else but right now I have 3rd degree burns and they hurt. I have holes in my heart and it has been dragged around by her for years. Enough stupidity. Enough lies, Enough of her! Begone you evil person, I want no more of YOU or YOUR lies!