True words of wisdom, Victoria. But I don't know how to correct it. I have never lived alone EVER. I have never been totally by myself, in order to figure out myself. I was too busy trying to placate marriages where the other person had their own agenda and was too busy trying to control me. And I was the fool for letting them, but didn't know how to do anything differently.
It is one thing to say "Love yourself" when I just don't see much there to love. I don't know myself. It is scary to even think about. I used to think, when I was married to her, that I didn't have to have dreams of my own, because hers always took precedence. Her dreams were always the more important. I guess I got that from my parents. "Always defer to your "husband"
I wish I didn't need her. When push comes to shove, I really don't think I actually do NEED her, but I definitely WANTED her. There was nothing about her that I didn't love. I loved her company, her smile, her wit, her mannerisms, her passion, everything. I just don't understand any of this.
Moreover, I thought she was it for me. She was so different from my husband. I thought it was true love. I thought she meant what she said. But how does a person spend $1200 on new wedding rings on Tuesday, and then less than 24 hours later, wants to end the relationship? I will never understand that.
If everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, we'd see the day when nobody died. IF EVERYONE CARED/Nickelback