I just can't believe all the lies she told me! I found a card she gave me not long after we "reconciled" that said she appreciated the efforts I was making and to hold on tight and we would have a great life together. She said she loved and adored me. How could she write those things and not mean them? How could she promise me over and over again she wouldn't leave me, and she did? Why?
I just don't get it. Am I dealing with a narcissistic liar who has control issues and commitment phobia? I couldn't look someone in the eye and knowingly tell them something like what she said, and it not be true.
Why do I fall for stupidity like this? Why am I the damn fool who fell in love with her? Moreover, where do I go from her?
I hate this pain, I hate the lies, I hate the way she ran me over and left me to pick up the pieces of my heart ONCE MORE!!!!