"Sometimes it's ok to not be ok..."
I was beyond my breaking point last week, the frequent stress-induced meltdowns were no longer fixing the problems in my life. I was terrified and didn't know where to turn anymore. If it wasn’t money or school, it was medical, car problems and being reminded of a friend who was recently killed.
I had support from a lot of people who told me exactly what I wanted to hear. When I texted my best friend though I got the help I really needed. She had me come over to her house and we talked for about an hour before I had to head home. I told her that I was terrified and that I needed help. I told her that I wasn't sure where the line between right and wrong was anymore and that I had lost control over who I was.
She reminded me that it is ok to not be ok sometimes. She reminded me that there is nothing wrong with melting down time from time to time. She told me that if I'm acting out, I'm the only one that can choose to stop that; no one else can stop me.
Franklin D. Roosevelt said, "the only thing we have to fear is fear itself."
She's my best friend because she can tell me all the things that I don't want to hear and support me when I screw up anyway. She reminded me that the things that hurt us are very real and that we cannot ignore them, but we do have to find ways to cope with them. Having an outlet for stress is critical; just know what you're doing. Don't wake one morning and not be able to look at yourself in the mirror.
I wanted to share this with everyone because far too often, I think that we forget when life gets out of hand that sometimes it really is ok to not be ok. We’re human.
"What would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?"