Thanks for sharing your story. I will keep you in prayer. I pray that God will direct you on the right path for you as you go forward.
It is tough being in an environment that is not gay-supportive. I am very convinced that Christ works through his church, flawed though it is. Unfortunately there often seems to be a feeling that one can either be devoted to Christ or be gay. I think that is a false choice. Christ is at work in his people whether they are gay or straight.
If God has created you as a gay person, that is where you should be. Each of us can serve God as we are. To hide or lie only weakens our witness. I see a majority of gays who have a real aversion to anything that has the word "Christian" attached to it. That is a tragedy, for the love of God is for everyone.
For I am convinced that neither life nor death...neither the present nor the future nor anything in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39