Wow! What a story. It's been quite some time since I posted here. I found SoulForce when I was wrestling with my sexuality as a teenager in high school. God did wonderful things through amazing people here, and I know that this place is one of the reasons I am still alive.
I don't have a lot to say, except that you are welcome here. I hope that this place will provide you with the care you need. Your story is incredible, and you sound like a generous human being. Thank you for this. I hope your faith will be made truly whole.
Grace and Peace,
"The one thing truly worthwhile is becoming Godís friend." - Gregory of Nyssa