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[ursus]

I go by many names, but for some reason the forum would only give me a few letters, so I had to abbreviate myself.

I was ursa smaller, but now I'm just ursus. I'm a Canadian ex-mennonite evangelical. I come from humble beginnings, attended a year of mission-based bible school. I took a couple of trips to Africa.

For years I thought I was frigid. It was shortly after my faith came crashing down that I allowed myself to consider the more likely possibility that I was a lesbian.

I have been out for just over a year, now. My family disagrees with my lifestyle but we don't really talk about it. They've long since stopped trying to convince me to attend re-orientation therapy. I'm currently living near Boston where I attend college and live with my girlfriend and her family.

I no longer identify with any specific religion, though the tattoo on my arm reminds me to remember what is good and discard what is useless, be patient and learn what I can wherever I may find it. However, if there's anything I understand, it's the frustration of not fitting into the christian crowd, the fear of coming out to religious family members, and the frustration of feeling isolated and alone. And I speak fluent christianese.

So here I am. I'll try to adjust my social interactions to the status quo.