Hello! My name is Snuffy.

[Snuffy]

Now I'm sure all of you have guessed that Snuffy is not my real name. I am using this alias, mostly because I am, in general, a neurotic, paranoid person. I am recently coming to grips with the possibility of myself being lesbian or bisexual. I'm not sure yet. I'm not sure if I'm even a technical lesbian or bisexual! I'm one of the seemingly few who had a 'choice' in liking girls. I am in high school and the reason I am unsure is because I do not really love girls for their bodies, I actually prefer boy's bodies. The reason I like them is because of their personalities mostly. And the reason I have a 'choice' is because I seem to shy away from boys more nowadays because of some bad experiences with them. One time, this guy I didn't even know grabbed my upper leg, and I squeaked in shock, and with satisfaction on his face, he mockingly said, "Oops sorry, I didn't mean to make you squeak. I thought you were someone else." And also, I was completely crushed by this seemingly sweet, but really two-faced, absorb-the-personality-of-everyone-around-him guy. Which was really unfortunate as he hung out with some very mean people and did nothing to stop their mockery. I got sent down into a bit of a depression, or maybe just heartbreak as I thought that even a wonderful 'Christian' couldn't love me. Since then, I have had many terrible dreams. And I know obviously, not all men are like that, and only a tiny fraction are, I just can't bring my mind away from those instances. And this girl I've known for a while now just seems good for me, she calms me down, slaps sense into me, and is genuine. And that is, probably, more than you ever wanted to know about me.