4 times! Really?

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Wife left me AGAIN!!!!This makes 4 times and I am as always left reeling with grief, dismay, anger, questions and I have people left and right giving me all sorts of advice. I can't eat and I can't sleep.

This time it is over money and nothing that couldn't be resolved, she is just under a lot of stress with her new business, but why is it always me that gets the boot when it gets hot in the kitchen?

My heart can't take this much longer. I am devastated as I have been the 3 previous times and my head tells me to get the hell away from her and that she is toxic, but my heart longs to be in bed with her snuggled up warm and close, and to smell her hair and hold her soft body next to me.

Was it all a delusion? Did I want it so bad that I made up a dream to justify it? Is this all her way of dealing with stress? Is a control tactic to get what she wants?

I need some advice and wise counsel. Oops, she did it again. And I am left with a broken mess to clean up and I don't know where to go or what to do with all that I am feeling... HELP ME!!!