Hi, my name is Chuck

[Milton]

My screen name (Milton) is actually my middle name! I am an out gay man who is a survivor of attending and graduating from a Christian college (The King's College, now in NYC) and the Navy. Don't ask....lol.

I look back at my four years at TKC with a lot of regret. My best friend was also gay, but neither of us knew about the other. He died of AIDS several years ago. I believe that if we had become lovers instead of just friends, he would still be alive today.

As for the Navy, well it is a long story, better left for another time, another place.

I believe that my experience attending TKC had many positive aspects, but it also had serious consequences. Because of all the feelings I repressed, and continued to repress for many years afterward, I suffered emotionally and endured a great loss of real love. It made an indelible impact on my psyche which even today is not completely healed. I still have great difficulty being intimate with another man, and have had several failed relationships.

Christian colleges must realize how damaging repression is for young gay and lesbian Christians and provide them with extra special nurturing, comfort and guidance. As it stands, many many of them will likely suffer emotionally for years or for the rest of their lives.