It seems they've found me out.

[AlRubyx]

Hello Soul force. My name is Alex Arthurs. Tomorrow I am meeting with the dean of my school; Smith. He has said it is because of internet communication, that he has some serious concerns with. As I've made no effort to hide my sexuality, I can only assume that it's sites like this. I also talked to my ex, my gay friends, etc. through other sites. The school has a policy that kicks LGBT people as soon as they are found out... Not only that, but people who support LGBT rights as well, or supports a "homosexual lifestyle." I was going to deny everything at first, but no... That won't work. I've realized I need to help change this place.

I always thought that this kind of discrimination was illegal, to be honest. I figured someone had taken the fall; but I realize something now... I need to come in, guns blazing. I need to tell him all that we're about, and all that I know and love. I need to make this place see that gay isn't about who gets to have the most butt-sex, and that they're all abominations against God. I need to get these people to see its for one, about love, for two, not a sin, and for three, not a conscious choice at any rate.

As I look outside, I notice something... The first snowfall of the year... I've always loved the snow... It's almost like God is trying to tell me something... New beginnings, or maybe just reaffirming what I know I have to do. At any rate, I suppose I'm going to be a martyr, here. I'm taking the fall, but I may just plant a seed of tolerance and love in the dean's head.

This is who I am, this is what I enjoy being. This is what I'm comfortable with. If no one's going to stand up for this injustice here, I suppose I will. Everyone, please pray for me... Please... I've never needed it more... And if I succeed, in any manner, we're one step closer to our mission here... I'm gay, I'm proud, and I'm not some godless heathen either.

I've actually cried more today than I have in my entire life... My tears have run dry... When I get kicked out, which is extremely likely, my life is over. All my scholarships will be gone. I won't be able to get the job I've wanted my entire life. I'll be lucky to work at McDonald's. But if I can even help change the world one little bit for the better, my sacrifice will be worth it. Again, please, please, please. I need all the prayer I can get right now. Thank you for your time. Let's pray for open-mindedness here at Cedarville University, and that I'll know the right words to say, because I've never stood up for myself like this; not against my parents, not against my friends, and not even close to against a professional like this.

- Alex