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02-07-2009, 02:41 PM
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Bad News
Ok so here lately my luck has sucked like all get out. Lets start with the first thing that happened right after christmas i got a speeding ticket and paid it off already..well i got into the new world of pills and was taking some (not addicted or nothing) well I had a friend who is straight and wanted to take something to help his legs well i gave him something and it messed him up and I ended up taking advantage of him and we did some minor things and this guy is like my best friend and i realized that I am in love with him (it may sound stupid but its true). Anyways Wed. night at about 10pm I got pulled over for "wreckless driving" I wasnt speeding or anything I just drifted a little bit into the other lane and almost hit a cop(ya I kno it is bad)...well like 20 police officers stopped that night(not kidding either)..that thought i was drunk I did the breathalizer I shot 0.00 they thought i was high and i passed all those tests..well they was lookin through the windows of my car and like the idiot i am i told them they could search it..not realizing there was something in there..well they found pills...they couldnt arrest me but they had to contact my parents and they couldnt get a hold of them..well they get a county police to stop and he gets out and asks where i live and I tell him and he said well why the hell are you going that way to get home..(well that way was quicker for me to get where i live) i tried to tell him and he yelled I dont give a fuck (excuse my language) where you was going..anyways its been a bad year so far..im facing some serious stuff and may have to go to boot camp..im lucky im a minor i guess...but guess what they have my wreckless court date on the same day as my birthday march 19 which sucks :/
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#2
02-07-2009, 02:48 PM
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Ask for help and keep asking until you get it!
It sounds like you need regular counseling from someone who can help you deal with your feelings so you can STOP MESSING AROUND WITH PILLS. You need to stop! As you are finding out, it is way too dangerous to play with that kind of stuff. If you were out of it enough to drift your car between traffic lanes, you could have been killed, or killed someone else. Suppose you were going 80 on a freeway and that happened and you hit the other car. You'd be dead, do you see? Get help right now! Get a counselor and/or a program that can help you. Does anyone here have recommendations how Steve can find a good place for some help with this stuff?
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#3
02-07-2009, 02:51 PM
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You must of misunderstood. I dont drink and drive or fly high if you get what I am sayin..i drive sober..i can understand u sayin i need help for some things but im not addicted to pills. So you can say you have never drifted over in the other lane by mistake?
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02-07-2009, 04:06 PM
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shit happens
And that's the way life is sometimes. No way getting around it. If you drift over into the other lane and 20 cops show up....well...maybe there is something more going on here than meets the eye.
Life is giving you a message. This is your wake up call. What more do you need? Zerbie is right. Get rid of the fucking pills! Now!
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02-07-2009, 04:11 PM
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ok everyone can quit gettin so pissy...i told yall i wasnt on anything that night i dont drive while i am on stuff...so calm down ive done it mayb 3 times so calm down...im not addicted and i dont like being cussed at...you can handle this in a more mature while..pissin me off wouldnt help me just make it worse...I kno what i did was wrong but I WAS NOT ON ANYTHING THE NITE I PULLED OVER MY LAWYER TOLD ME I SHOULD NOT OF GOT A WRECKLESS DRIVIN TICKET BUT A IMPROPER LANE USE
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#6
02-07-2009, 04:15 PM
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oh.....
You really don't get it, do you? I guess a wall is going to have to fall on you or something.
So you can't handle a little language, but you can handle having pills you shouldn't have in your car? Your lawyer can't save you from yourself. That's your job.
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Be the love you seek. Last edited by Daniel; 02-07-2009 at 04:41 PM. Reason: one sentence addition
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#7
02-07-2009, 04:44 PM
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Daniel you act like you know me and everything I am going through...I am done with the pills maybe that didnt pass through your small little brain...but you have no reason to attack me when you know over half the people who abuse drugs do it for a specific reason or to wash something out of there minds....think about that b4 u go and get all pissy
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#8
02-07-2009, 04:55 PM
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I heard you. You said you were not using any substance the night the 20 cops showed up. But something was wrong, and whatever that something was needs to get fixed. Of course we've all had bad judgment driving, but 20 cops?
From your original post on this thread, you sounded like you have been very upset about a lot of things. That's why I suggested asking for help. To deal with all those many things that are not working right now. Doesn't mean there's something wrong with you, but with the situation. Professional counselors can help you figure out what is wrong with the situation, and what you can and can't do about changing it. I thought you posted here because you wanted feedback. If you don't want feedback, I am willing to stop writing to you. My opinion, and if you like this will be the last time I say it: there is SOMEthing wrong, whether it's pills or something else, and if you look seriously for real help, you can eventually find it. Whatever is at the root of what's bothering you, pills or no pills, if you want real help for the things that are bothering you, look around for it until you find it. There are therapists, counselors, social workers, teachers. . . the world is full of people who will offer the best they can give if you want it. Hope things get better for you soon.
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*** Never linger too long with the ignorant, throw stones at their talk. Walk only with the lovers, the mirror of the soul gets rusty when dipped in muddy water. -Rumi
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02-07-2009, 05:10 PM
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It started off with one cop stoping me then as cops passed by and stopped..i asked why so many were stopping and he said it was a slow night...and all the help that is offered costs money which i cant afford at the moment
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#10
02-07-2009, 05:32 PM
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Listen up, young man. You posted about some crappy stuff that's going on in your life, in what appears to be a request for help. If you don't want that help, there's no need for you to post about it here. 2 of our most respected forum members, and good friends of mine, have offered that help and given you some advice. You have just repayed their kindness with insult. I can think of one other person who has come on the forum and done that. He comes around about once a month, makes a post, and very few people even bother to respond. Don't use the forum to whine about your problems if you don't want to listen to the wisdom of forum members who have been there.  and if you want "pissy", go ahead and insult this old queen. Then you'll really know what pissy means. *moderator hat back on*
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Tolerate one another, just as I have tolerated you.- Jesus Christ?
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02-07-2009, 05:49 PM
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For on-going help, many counselors offer what is called a 'sliding scale fee,' which means they lower their regular rate according to your income. At a time when I was having crises and making very little money (read: almost none,) I was able to get counseling for $25 per appointment. That's practically nothing, yet the therapist was well-trained, and a good responsible professional who helped me. Do your parents or guardians have insurance that covers therapy? That is also an option: see if you can find a therapist whose service is covered by the insurance you're on. Also keep an ear open to sincere, trustworthy offers to just listen from any trustworthy person in your life. Be on the alert for teachers, clergy, anyone in your daily life who expresses concern for your well-being and deserves your trust. At the same time, be a little bit careful who you trust, but don't slam the door on people if it isn't necessary for your protection. If you EVER think of hurting yourself, if you've ever thought that way in the past and think you might again, I want you to find the number to your nearest crisis hotline and program it into your phone, then put it on speed dial. That way, if you are ever in real trouble, all you have to do is press one button. Do that for yourself, just in case you are ever in a real bad way. Okay? Find that number, program it into your phone. That way it's there IF you ever need it.
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*** Never linger too long with the ignorant, throw stones at their talk. Walk only with the lovers, the mirror of the soul gets rusty when dipped in muddy water. -Rumi
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02-07-2009, 06:05 PM
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I do know you
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You are the one who is pissy. Pissed off that life is giving you a raw deal. Pissed that you got stopped with pills you shouldn't have had in your car. Oh...you didn't take them that night. But you did take them at some point. And you aren't 18 yet, right? You fucked up. And now you want a pat on the head just because you're gay and in love with your best friend? If can't afford a private therapist, go to a clinic. You'll find a good social worker that can help you if you keep looking. Trouble is, you given up even before you've started. You need a therapist who will call you on your act, and help you figure out why you've been acting out in the first place. You better find one fast. This latest episode - I wager- is just the tip of the iceberg.
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02-07-2009, 08:07 PM
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im not 18 i am 17
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02-07-2009, 08:15 PM
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02-07-2009, 08:15 PM
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I am srry i have been an asshole with all of you. Ive never been this way b4 its just been harder and i know i got to suck it up and deal with it. ill give u the fast bio of me..when i was a child i was molested when i was 15 i was diagnosed with a back disease called shermans kyphosis and had a surgery where i was told i had a 60% chance of dyin but as u can tell i lived and i am glad it was a 12 hr surgery i should post a pic of the scar i doubt yall want to see anyways last summer i almost lost my left eye due to a detached retina and this past christmas i had caracted surgery and alot of other problems. im srry for the way i acted i shouldnt have
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02-07-2009, 08:16 PM
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what do u mean when was i not tellin the truth i never claimed to be 18
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02-07-2009, 08:19 PM
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Ah, I read it backward. Apologies.
Do you have a response to what Daniel said? Is he pretty much right?
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#18
02-07-2009, 08:21 PM
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no he is not right.
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02-07-2009, 08:25 PM
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What is it you're looking for here?
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02-07-2009, 08:46 PM
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Steve, I have to tell you, they are being harsh because they care what happens to you!
I have been here for over three years and I understand what's happening here. In the past I have voiced situations that caused everyone to jump on me and tell me that I needed to be seeing a therapist. I felt offended by the responses, even hurt. I realized though that they were responding that way because they cared about me. Also, even though it was the last thing I wanted to hear, I realized that I did need some kind of guidance while I was dealing with the situation. Do you think that you might benefit from being able to talk to a pastor or someone about how you're feeling? After all, couldn't we all?
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